i am SOOO sad.
i put my contact number on this worldwide web
and NO ONE message me to ask for a ticket
and NO ONE even tag me.

sigh.
is band concert that boring?
is A01 performance not attractive enough?

whatever.

anyway,
i think i nv regretted going to crescent
cos crescent REALLY rawks!

:D

05A01's FIRST outing! :D

haha. this is super hilarious ((:

guan and terence are two lucky shit :D

so A01 finally got their FIRST outing after like

erm...

7 months??

and it turned out quite well. like 1/2 of the class came!!!

jaslyn the ah soh can't STOP taking pictures of RANDOM stuff.

our A01 performance will turn out great i am sure, since this is the first time i see A01 so enthu in performing! :D

ya. in case, you guys wanna come watch BAND-IT

a fund raising concert for nj band's hongkong trip.

the concert includes the nj band, of course.

nj western dance, external western dance group and 05A01 performance!!!

and i am playing the electric guitar even though i've only learnt it for 2 months?

but nvm lah, malu then malu lor.

it's NOT AS IF i have never be embarrassed before.

like how i slipped and fell so unglamly, shouting "MUMMY! MUMMY!"

in front of 2 NJ guys who didn't even offer help to pick me up

(i am SO not dissappointed with nj guys WHAT)

but it's ok. I AM USED TO IT.

nj what.

okie that's not the point.

the point is:

I NEED TO SELL A LOT A LOT OF TICKETS

so ANYONE (open to public) who wanna come

please call or sms me @ 96844273/tag me.

i sound a little desperate but i think i am.

the whole trip is goin' to cost me like THOUSAND BUCKS

and i don't want my mum to pay.

so who wanna HIRE me?

I CAN WORK and i am HIGHLY HARDWORKING! :D

this entry seems quite long to me.

and i realised i like talking abt RANDOM stuff. (like siew!)

don't you realise porcupines are cute? ain't COWS cuter?

don't you think that rainy days are happy days?

don't you think irony brings out similarity?

i think guinea pigs should be microchipped too

and maybe hamsters too?

will hamster meat taste good? what about human flesh?

HAHA! this is SUPER random!

but don't you think random-ness brings out a sense of formality and sequence?

nvm. forget everything abt my bull-shit.

i think i am cranky tonight.

i think i love everyone even though i got no friends.

i love sonnets :D

i think i love pink too.

i think having friends staying in the west is super cool.

i think having friends ponning school together is much much more cooler.

i think having friends to spend time with after ponning school is much much much more cooler.

okie. this intro is like whateverrr.
HAHA! :D

had an impromptu steambooat date today! with my rojak. without eunice and regina who are not that westerners.

HAHA!

grocery shopping with shuyi was a TRAUMATISING experience. seriously.

less fats. no transferred fats or whateverr.

enough details. but it was SUPER LOTS OF FUN!

i think rojak is a bunch of evil friends.

they laugh and mock at each other. [friendster pics are interesting] :D

and seriously,

i realised I GOT NO FRIENDS.

oh man lah.

sigh. and if regina is pissed off with me.

i can be an ultimate loner.

SPELL L-O-N-E-R!

loner

nvm. i will get used to it.

someone once told me that to be a loner, you need LOTS and LOTS of courage.

and i think it's true,

be it self-comfort or a matter of facts.

:D

i will live in my own self-delusion and you will continue to live in your self-righteous life.

i am filled with angst.

indeed I AM

i will not allow myself to be trampled all over.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JJ!!

:D

taken 24/10/2005

with jj and qiling the bimbo.

taken 19/10/2005

with cheryl, gin and siew :D

HAHA! :D

AO1 is getting closer and closer ((:

anw, today is such a moodswing day.

-ROARS-

BAD MOOD 1 : there's N O T H I N G to do in school since i was totally unaware that it's not an official school day

GOOD MOOD 1: went SPCA to get our microchipping video done. the dog (BUBBLES) was SOOO cute.

BAD MOOD 2: i got pissed off with project work -stares at kaijie-

GOOD MOOD 2: the A01 had their first jamming session ((:

BAD MOOD 3: i realised i am not bunking with regina for the hk trip. different groups somemore. i am gng crazy lah. i am gng to be a loner. I DON'T WANNA GO HK ANYMORE!

BAD MOOD 4: was supposed to have sectionals, but no one was there. and it was supposed to be SECTIONALS and EVERYONE (except the 3rd clarinets) were playing cards and carrom.

GOOD MOOD 3: stormed out of band room after flaring up. saw qiling and jj and they invited me to go causeway point with them! -beams-

at least i ended my day with good mood 3 or else i think i will die of

H Y P E R T E N S I O N

HAHA! i think this entry SUPER bimbotic.

but i wanna show u HOW MY MOOD SWINGS like NO ONE'S BUSINESS!!

sometimes i feel that i am SUPER evil and HOT tempered.

time for reflection.

sigh )):

LORD, give me a loving heart for people

my craving for kitkat chunky is back

does it mean that i am back to my days in sec 4?

or does it simply show that i need stimulants to be happy?

hai. this shit life. YELLS

my sunday school teacher said that we might be upset over pstr cheah's home coming.

we see it as a loss to our church congregation,

there's so much for him to be done to build the church,

there's so much more he's able to lead the congregation.

However, we failed to see God's plan for him.

God has allowed Pstr Cheah to come this far and his works on earth have been completed.

thanks to the Lord

i got so pissed off when this author wrote that people believe in fantasies(religions) just to run away from reality.

i rather run away from reality than to be part of the world

i hate myself. seriously.

i wanna learn to breathe.

i wanna fall asleep t o n i g h t
cos that brings me closer to you

fantasy.
living in fantasy.
does it make you feel better?

turn back the freaking time lah

now i realised the fraility of a human's life.
it's not as if i have been ignorant for all these years,
but it only affects u ten folds more if it happens to people close to you.
and this is not the first time.
i've experienced much more for the past few mths.

to you:
i wanna let you know how much we love you. though we do not experience the same pain as you are going through now. but we all faced the same sadness, despair, helplessness and everything you are feeling now. and rem, you are not alone. definitely not alone.

we love you

this year totally sucks.
and i am thankful that this school term is going to end peacefully.
at least all of us are in a B E T T E R mood now, as compared to the endless bitchings before promos.
and even mr leong seems to be LESS pissed with us.
:D
and A01 is getting closer ((:

sometimes i feel that in this year,
i've experienced so much that i have aged like a decade, rather than a year.
i seems to have forgotten the fun during the first 3 mths. the slack days before common tests. the rushing period before promos.
now, what i rem most vividly is the day before today.
and that's it.
the rest of the memory seems to be like a long long time ago.
and though it has only been 3 months plus,
it seems like i am on my own already.
and no one is part of my life.

it's ok. it's alright.
i thank God that He had led me through all miseries and trials.
for letting me find comformt and solace in Him.
for letting me find the source of light when my world was in darkness.
though i am not sure that life will still remain as it is now.
i trust in the LORD that He will lead me through,
next year, the year after that and forever and ever.
and i thank God for all the faithful christians
that i've met who've been an inspiration to me.
Amen.

worldings. it's time to fear God.
for He is your only salvation.

note of the day: cherish every moment in your life. love everyone in your life. for God's plan is often revealed in a way that that u will least think of it.




don't live in the past for it brings nothing
but sadness and guilt.
so much more to be given.

Each day I live,

I want to be a day to give the best of me.

I'm only one, but not alone,

My finest day is yet unknown.

I broke my heart, for ev'ry gain

To taste the sweet, I face the pain.

I rise and fall, yet through it all,

this much remains,

I want...

One moment in time,

When I'm more than I thought I could be.

When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away,

And the answers are all up to me.

Give me one moment in time,

When I'm racing with destiny,

Then in that one moment of time,

I will feel, I will feel eternity.

I've lived to be the very best,

I want it all, no time for less.

I've laid the plans,

Now lay the chance, here in my hands,

I will be, I will be free.

the band is playing this song for the fund-raising concert ((:

and it reminds me the day back in crescent.

-beams-

that's like ONE YEAR AGOOOOOOO!

time flies like b-a-n-a-n-a-s!!!

oh my holy cow!!!

something on a lighter note!!!

I WON'T GET ANY OF MY FRIENDS AS MY OGLs NEXT YEAR :D

the entire 05A01 got PROMOTED!!

even the slack samuel seow [note the sibilant alliteration!]

:D

terrence that banana is a lucky shit.

he got to go out with 6 pretty babes ALLTHETIME

we pon-ned maths and went to watch WIG

i shall spare u the details. the show is NC-16. it contains HORROR AND GORE

and believe me,

it's DEFINITELY horrifying and gory :D

LALALA! we should be proud of the ARTS FACULTY!

WE ARE ARTY FARTYYYYYY

-farts-

:D

dont't you just simply miss those days?

innocence. naivety. simplicity.

ihatetheworldnow.
i hate this world.

just let there be destruction
and every single worldlings will vanished from this earth
and the world will be back to perfection once again.



`be strong. be cool.
let it be. let go.

SPELL HOT!!!!!

H-O-T!!

JESSICA ALBA!

INTO THE BLUE

haha! ((:

I think i've an infatuation with her.

this is dumb :D

BUT I AM STRAIGHT !! ((:

town-ed with a little of the S24. watched into the blue!! -drools- :D

HAHA!

was quite disappointed but it's ok!

i still love S24! :D

dora and terence are 2 FUNNY hilarious shit.

CHEMISTRYYYYYY! :D

open day tmrw

nj's theme this year:

different places, different faces,

NJ AMAZES ((:

wonderful theme

indeed amazing ((:

WHAHA!

`sometimes i feel that i'm being OVERLY-sentimental.

BITE of the DAY :

never take MORE than 9 months to adapt to a place. get a life and change your lifestyle, mindset and settle down in WHATEVER shit place you are in.

9 months are WAYYYYYYYYY TOOOOOOO LOOOOONGGGG!

I AM DESPERATE!!!

i got not enough money to pay for my bloody guitar )):

who wanna donate to the let-annie-buy-guitar fund?

-beams-

but it's all my bloody fault.

i saved and scrimped like hell while in school. i ate like 1buck for recess only. but when i am OUT, i just can't stop eating like mad )): and when i see smth i like, i need to have it )):

-whines- [to the power of 1million zillion]

sat sat sat.

clique shoes.

LALALALA!

ystd was great cos' i bought a new BIMBO bag!!! ((:

it's so interesting, cos' i gonna be a bimbo!

"let's spell bimbo, b-i-m-b-o!!"

whahaha! then i can join the BIMBO CLIQUE -winks at yanru!-

LALALA!

yanping is one humorous shit.

((:

wondernews: only 6 went for school ystd! and sharon phua threatened to issue severe punishment to those who nv turned up for principal talk :D

principal talk is really fun :D

`let my screams reverberate through thousand miles.

so that you can hear my sweet concern.

"how are you?"

PW day is SO PW. we did nothing but PW!!!! -faints-

kaijie is so hip cos' he got himself a NEW FILA BAG and he got a FRIENDSTER ACCOUNT!
HOW HIP IS THIS!
and i am not kidding!!!
WHAHAHA! ((:

OP workshop is hilarious! the whole class started sleeping when terrence spoke cos' he was sleeping through others' presentation.
05A01 sees EYE TO EYE!! ((:

hilarious shit :D

amy asked me whether i was happy to get the message.

i told her.

i was satisfied.

`to always find yourself in this world of untruths.

i love my MUMMY now! ((:

i really love spending time with my mummy now.

maybe not on a large scale tho, cos' she DOES gets on my nerves.

especially when we go shopping.

HAHA!

money is all that matters to all the parents.

alright. this is a hasty generalisation.

perhaps to those more miser parents -stares at my mum-

but you see, she's willing to spend only 3bucks on her lunch and gave me 10bucks for mine.

that's why i love my mummy ((:

she may be a little old fashioned, traditional or whatever.

and truthfully, she's one of the few women i know that doesn't really care about how they look.

SHE'S LIKE HIGHLY UN-SELFCONSCIOUS as compared to me.

((:

ilovemummy :D

-beams-

i used to be so liberal and wild. i love to hang out late at nights.

when one grows up, she gets more freedom and the more she enjoys it.

but ironically, the more freedom i get, the more i wanna kepp myself at home.

perhaps this the only place, i feel safe and at peace with myself.

and at least there's someone who will love me no matter what.

and i will never be upset again.

and i refused to be.

i'm glad GINNYBOBANNIE is picking up her broken pieces.

WELLDONE fellow nienie!

i feel that we should not bring our sadness over to the another year, so before the year ends, we should rearrange everything in order, so we won't look back and think how shit our lives have been.

each year starts with an anticipation and new amazement.

and i try to convince myself this.

`maybe one day, we will really be totally out of each other's path

but the memories are still there,

though it's slowly fading away.

ginbabe: i miss those days with lolli and gummybear, when i feel like a totally crazy schoolgirl. i miss those days of adrenaline rush )): and i miss CRESCENT

trio's still great

we are alive and kicking

after we finished promos and we took neoprints,

yet again!

yah. so u see, we have indeed grow up to be ladies and leaders of tomorrow!!

:D

anyway, this neoprint machine (the one with stairs inside) at heeren sucks.

it got the WORST backgrounds ever!

and SERIOUS, iamNOTkidding!

nvm. first trio outing after like EONS! ((:

we just did the usual stuff. eat, shop then sit down and bitch-ed.

what's new.

details shall be spared to prevent agitation and agony due to our incessant bitchings.

met jeanpok at greatworld since she stays at like 20steps away from it.

[ok, i am exaggerating. maybe just like 30 steps away frm greatworld?]

jeanpok invited me to her house for dinner since my parents were out in malaysia shopping. HAHA! jeanpok's mum is funny like ginny's. they feel FLATTERED when u praised their cooking. i bet they are even to cook bird nest for you if you continue to flatter them.

WHAHAHA

parents are easily deceived xD

oh. and jean's sisters are like HIGHLY HILARIOUS too! :D

me and jean killed our time looking at funny pictures on some funny webby. and that's what i usually do online other than playing games from www.mousebreaker.co

whatalife.

and the trio concluded that guys are so redundant.

we are single and available. but not so available.

and we all want RICHandCUTEguys! [that's like totally SUPERFICIAL lah!]

lmao.

ginny's blog is hilarious.

gin: my jnr asked me abt it too. i told her, whether nj is good or not is a relative question for different pple. but to me, it's not good. perhaps it's good for her. HAHA! i'm so honest, i don't need to go for confession!!!

`i feel this strange awareness to the new world around me

i seem to lost myself in this new world.

trying to conform, pretending as if it was my true self.

perhaps one day, i'll find myself back.

-idont really care whether i fit in or not.

a clear conscience is that thing that matters.

xinlin said i needed more guy friends.

WHAHAHA!

perhaps when we grow older,
our hearts become stronger,
our minds and visions expand instaneously.
we then tend to think differently.about what life is supposed to be.




"we can't get back our past,
what we hold on to are the fading memories and fading pictures,
but looking back on these almost faded memories and pictures,
we will still think that things back then are still memorable and enjoyable.
tho' they are in the past."



`what's the point of holding on?

the thing i liked most about my birthday this year,
is to receive a sms from LAM ZHIXIN aka MVW

she just simply wrote,
"yoz! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Geez... long time no see le. Got miss me? Hope to see u soon. jia you for everything u do! :-P "
-zhixin aka MVW

and i have no idea what got over me and i started crying.
my first friend in crescent. my first sitting partner. my first singing partner. my first clique. e
first friend whom i called when eejin left. and the first friend i got pissed off with.

we used to have this small box on our tables and our hands cant cross over the box and if we quarrelled, u can see a gap between our tables. HAHA! we formed a clique called seasons4 (S4) cause we got inspired by F4 -whateverr- me, yuko, zhixin and huilin. and we all fall in love with meteor garden, with xinlin too!

and lots more lah. but i am lazy to write down ALLL those humorous stuff we have done.
i still rem using brooms as mics and sing through it!!! and writing poems and musical when we got so bored during lessons and how mrs han chased us out cause we were singing in class!

oh man -faints-
what a life.
HAHAHA
FUN LIFE! :D

so i received her sms, and i got all emotional cause i reallyreallyreally miss her so much! it's like after sec 3 when we switched classes, we no longer sing and dance in class anymore. i rarely see her in sch and S4 sort of splited up. but ya that's definitely NOT THE END!

so i replied her, saying i miss her SOOOO much.

so she said, iwill try to msg u more often. take care.

AND THIS REPLY IS LIKE HOW SAD LAH! )):
i miss her soooooomuch! )):
and yuko too )):

anw, my birthday was great ((:
lit was fine. tanning was cool. dinner was fun! ((:
rojak and gurdian force are BEST!
nienie and trio outings coming SOOON! REAL SOON! :D

upload some pics soon, when shuzk uploads it ((:

thanks to those who msged me!
esp fanny and lisa!!!! all the way from AUSSIE! sweetie pies! ((:
and all lots ((:

THANKS! ((:

i am still upset that i'm 17 already.

i am definitely getting OLDER!!

i shan't harp on it, or i'll see another white hair )):

`this day,

i am satisfied.

no matter what.

no matter on what level of sincerity

i believe GODisGOOD, allthetime :D

i am satisfied.

i have 7 friends in my friendster account that are born on 7oct!
it's like some mass giving birth day lah.


sigh.
my birthday is tomorrow. and the thought of it is killing me.
i used to be so excited when it's nearing my birthday,

but this year, it's so different.

i feel exceptionally
old.

seriously.

i am dreading this day, cos'i'm afraid of disappointment.
yet again
i am dreading this day, cos'i'm afraid of growing up
i am dreading it, cos' i know i hafta grow out of what i've been wallowing in.

i was thinking, what if i only get to live till 34yrs old,
and tmrw, i would have spent half of my life already )):

imagine, at the age of 17, u are like only 4 yrs away from working life and 1 more year to university.
THIS IS LIKE HOW FAST LAH!!

sigh.

i wanna marry peterpan and live in nevernever land )):

nvm. last paper tmrw. and that's something to be happy :D
and rojak outing tmrw! -BEAMS-

iwanna be disappointed no more.
-crosses finger-

`everytime i see a familiar silhouette,
my heart skipped a beat and pause.
wondering if it were you.
everytime i smell hugo,
it brings me back to you.

i think i spelt obscene as obsence.

SORRY

good english is very important! ((:

HAHA. this was like 3years ago? typical girls' school girl.

sit with leg WIDEWIDE! :D

the family picture!

the making of nienie family ((:

when we were sec1!! so anti-socialists what!

pri school! 5 peace! ((:

HAHAHAHA!

me! me! me! SO CUTE LAH!

chng and goh.

i used to think i was les because of them! they are like FREAKING NICE.

love them SO MUCH! i miss those days with them!

my fave zhixin and her craze with meteor garden!

spot the trio in the picture! ((:

our crescent band is VERY VERY BONDED, i tell u

was so bored. so was flipping through my photo albums. oh man. i had a bad laugh. seriously, we looked so freaking hideous! AHHAHA! i thought i can share it with u guys, a break frm studying promos. WHAHAHA!

oh man.

we looked damn shit.

and we used to think we looked OK and presentable.

i can faint by simply looking at it.

ok. stop laughing!!

we do grow up and out of it! ((:

it's good to be young once again

`memories are there to realise good ol' days are over.

it's there to remind us that life ain't like the past.

it's there to show that

days are slipping away seconds by seconds, years by years.

MISS KEENYA,

the best, the prettiest, the skinniest, the most potential to be a wonderful top model with ultimate humble-ness.

A MUST WATCH EPISODE MAN!!!
ANTM cycle 4 episode 10

ohman. competition brings out the true nature of one person.
she should stop eating since she knows she's getting fatter and fatter!!

ilovetyrabanks.

HAHA! i am a BIMBO.

maths is TOTALLY brain draining and eye-blinding.

how can i misread the question and take the already given answer as the question!!!
-yells-




"why does hello feel like good bye
and these memories can't replace
these wishes i wish and dreams i chase "



` i scremed your name, till i lost myself in the voice of my own.

i hate taking long bus rides listening to sentimental songs on my mp3.

i will just end up stopping at some bus stop when i can take it no longer and cab home. waste money.

aiyeah. i can't stand loser guys.

i am gng to be retained lah. at the rate i am studying. yayaya.

RETAINED = EXPELLED from school = to go MI or POLY or even be a ROADSWEEPER.

fabulous.

millenia's tcc provide GOOD service ((: -beams-

next sun will be TRIO day ((:

SAT day! ((:
studying and tanning/ towning day ((:

jeanpok's hse is SO near great world, which is SO near town.
UNFAIR.

went town for the fcuk promotion at tangs.
fcuk's sale = no sale. STILL SO EX! -faints-

oh and i saw person x's friend.
my heart skipped a beat. seriously. or perhaps it was SKIPPING LOTS.
it's definitely wasn't those adrenaline rush but a sign of fear.
the fear of being recognised. the fear of not being recognised. the fear of judgment.
some sort of contradicting feelings. sigh. i was SO SCARED.
but soon, he walked away.

JEANPOK is SUPER FUNNY.
she simply cant decide what shirt she wants! jean, save MORE money and buy all the shirts and ur titanium cymbals -whateverr-

iam mean girl. i have attitude problem. i am evil.

aiyeah. whateverrlah.