Sunday, October 31, 2004

God's letter to Woman

When I created the heavens and the earth, I spoke them into being. When I created man, I formed him and breathed life into his nostrils.

But you, woman,
I fashioned after I breathed the breath of life into man, because your nostrils are too delicate. I allowed a deep sleep to come over him so I could patiently and perfectly fashion you. From one bone, I fashioned you. I chose the rib, which protects his heart and lungs and supports him, as you are meant to do. Around this one bone,
I shaped you.
I modeled you.
I created you perfectly and beautifully.
Your characteristics are as the rib,
strong yet delicate and fragile.

You provide protection for the most delicate organ in man, his heart. His heart is the center of his being; his lungs hold the breath of life. The ribcage will allow itself to be broken before it will allow damage to the heart.
Support man as the rib cage supports the body.
You were not taken from his feet, to be under him, nor were you taken from his head, to be above him.

You were taken from his side, to stand beside him
and be held close to his side.

You are my perfect angel.
You are my beautiful little girl.
You have grown to be a
splendid woman of excellence,
and my eyes fill when I see the virtues in your heart.
Your eyes...don't change them.
Your lips, how lovely when they part in prayer.
Your nose, so perfect in form.
Your hands so gentle to touch.
I've caressed your face in your deepest sleep.
I've held your heart close to mine.
Of all that lives and breathes, you are most like me.

Adam walked with me in the cool of the day, yet he was lonely. He could not see me or touch me. He could only feel me. So everything I wanted Adam to share and experience with me, I fashioned in you; my Holiness, my Strength, my Purity, my Love, my Protection and Support.
You are special because you are an extension of me.
Man represents my image, woman my emotions.
Together, you represent the totality of God.

So man:
treat woman well.
Love her, respect her, for she is fragile.
In hurting her, you hurt me.
What you do to her, you do to me.
In crushing her, you only damage your own heart;
the heart of your Father,
and the heart of her Father.

and woman:
support man.
In humility, show him the
power of emotion I have given you.
In gentle quietness, show your strength.
In love, show him that you are
the rib that protects his inner self.

`you are divine. i am divine.

we are divine, unchanged by time.

Friday, October 29, 2004

i hate going tuition!!
even though mr gab is super macho,
but tuition sucks BIG TIME
and i am happy that next week is the
LAST lesson.

went for tuition just now.
by those oh-tuition-is-talk-non-stop-sessions guys!
they acted like gay, looked like gays.
i tried so hard not to listen, but they were talking at 180 decibels about
"oh u owe me 20cents for doing this question wrongly!"
nearly fell off the chair and fainted. -_-"'
then the rest of the tuition pple were like forming their own cliques and talked NON-stop, even when gab was arnd. if i were gab, i will just slammed the door and walked away. BLAH!
there was this eyecandy in class.
a nygh girl. `wooohoooo! x)
but not really appealing to me lah.
i miss my ex-eyecandy )):
whahaha! =D
hope he's dng alright x)

Thursday, October 28, 2004

24 days
to after o levels! [20/11/04]
And 24 days is better than 25 days! x)
realised there's a typical blog entry template for the sec4s.
which is "things to do after o levels!"
perhaps after reading all the things we gonna do,
we will feel more motivated to study?
and this is my exact sentiments.
fast forward the clock LAH!

hee hee! in lala mood today,which is rare since the start of self-studying period.

decided to dedicate the rest of the entry for my dearest MAMAsanWIFE! x)

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me and her. and this is our ONLY funkay pose. we always act cute. BLAH!

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we took this on the last day of school. we are wife and wife. our genders are a mystery!

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crescent toilet rawks! even tho the soap is expired. but all the jcs' toilet that i went was MUCH worse than our toilet! our toilet is a big as a living room! x)

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our cafe galilee studying plain only lasted for 2 weeks since the start of sch. i miss the free sandwich! )):

WAHAHAHAH! she will be super amused lah! =D
my blogging craving is off!
so off i go!

`Have no fear when your tears are fallin'
I will hear your spirit callin'
And I swear that I'll be there, come what may

Monday, October 25, 2004

When I have no light to guide me
And no one to walk beside me
will you come to me
Oh will you come to me
When the night is dark and stormy
will i have to reach out for you
will you come to me
Oh will you come to me

Saturday, October 23, 2004

Each day I live,
I want to be a day to give the best of me.
I'm only one, but not alone,
My finest day is yet unknown.
I broke my heart, for ev'ry gain
To taste the sweet, I face the pain.
I rise and fall, yet through it all, this much remains,
I want...

One moment in time,
When I'm more than I thought I could be.
When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away,
And the answers are all up to me.
Give me one moment in time,
When I'm racing with destiny,
Then in that one moment of time,
I will feel, I will feel eternity.

I've lived to be the very best,
I want it all, no time for less.
I've laid the plans,
Now lay the chance, here in my hands,
Give me...

[Chorus x2]

You're a winner, for a lifetime,
If you seize that one moment in time.
Make it shine.
Give me...

Chorus x2]

I will be, I will be free.

e Moment In Time
by Whitney Houston

`no where to run.
no one to run to.
where thou my hiding place?

Thursday, October 21, 2004

get a life, for heaven's sake.


practical's a killer.
sorry ms seah.
love u lots, my ms taitai chem teacher.

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

i can't stop coming online! blah! )): it's highly addictive!

my productive-ness only lasted for a day. like only yesterday. double sigh!

fanny and i discussed this on the train today.
is diplomacy or deterrance more important to avoid conflicts?
and i realised,
our conversations [me and fanny] are all revolving around our syllabus.
how EXCITING can our lives be!

diplomacy is more important as diplomacy ensures the basic respect countries have for one another. with close relationship with other countries, no tension will arise among countries and thus it avoids conflict. it's only when we have diplomacy to avoid conflict, then we are able to concentrate in building our citizen armed force to deter any external threats. Thus, with diplomacy, conflicts and tension among countries can be resolved in a peaceful way and also avoid conflict.

however, we must implement both methods to ensure peace and security in a country. we cannot depend on diplomacy alone to defence our country. promises can be broken easily and ties with other countries can be broken easily too. thus, deterrence is put into action to protect the country. thus, to ensure the safety of a country, both methods are applicable and essential.

i think we were talking so heartily that the guy beside me got so fed up. didn't really see his expression, but i can feel that tension was arising when he suddenly wore his earphones when we were talking lah! but well, it's always fun to hang arnd with fanny! =D

anw. new photos uploaded.
needa run. feeling guilty for coming online!! )):

Saturday, October 16, 2004

farewell is not an ending,
it's the start of another chapter.

my beloved dear friends.
i love you all so much!
to MARS and back! =D

my nienie family. s4. rojak. cgssb bandmates. 4c3'04. 2c2'02
you are all my memories.

oh. i was telling xinlin when i hugged her.
"i will still see ya on sundays manz. i think till the time when we are old. when my child will call u aunty chock. till we spent our whole lives together."
quite cute.

njc-ed today. was quite a nice experience. even though the school looks quite old. sigh. i wanna get in. but i can't. sigh. )):

`show me Thy ways.
lead me Thy path.
Thy will is undeniable.

Friday, October 15, 2004

what's love, when there's aint trust.
what's love, when it's filled with doubts.
what's love,when it's nothing but suspicion.
what's love, when it's only one person giving.
what's love, when you cry yourself to bed every night.
what's love, when you finally realised it was wrong but still stubborn-ly holding on.

it's such a tragedy to see someone deeply in love
but refused to acknowledge the relationship is all wrong.

one lives in self-denial to get the rush of adrenaline.

one is confident of changing the other's character because of love,
but they failed to realise, that old habits die hard.

one aspires, one yearns to be the ruler of the other's heart,
but they didn't recognise that their hearts were once given to another girl
before you come running along.

one tries to push back that jealous heart,
but human nature is the king, girls are jealous queens.

there's so many things that one wanna do.
there's so many things that one wanna have control of.
there's so many things that one wants it their way.
there's so many things that are beyond our control.

life is nothing, but obstacles.
love is nothing, but learning processes
and perhaps,
finally a form of delightment when you finally find ur mr right.

` will i ever see you again?
please stop living in my dreams.

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

i am so sick.
sick of all these crap.
4kg worth of papers.
4kg worth of homework.
there's so much to be done,
but there's so little time left.
so little.
i wanna be better.
wanna shine brighter.
wanna stand out.
wanna gain victory.
i'm always losing.
always more inferior.
always the weakest.

this is SO not the attitude.
but i feel so drained.
wamma try harder.
but my energy is limiting,
my strength is failing.
all that i think of is completing more homework,
all that i dream of is more math, sciences and humans
all that i want is to be more competent.
is that too much to ask for?

i'm not stressed lah. just worried. can't wait for it to be over and i will have lots of fun! mrPERVERT asked me to learn drums with him! woohoo! i'll be 2nd eejin! YAYEE! =D andd overseas trips and more skateboarding! went to check out some decks[skateboards] today! looks cool! with graffiti and without graffiti. i bet i can draw the graffiti myself lah!.
and it costs 20 bucks more with graffiti! cheat money lah! xP
i am running out of patience.
waiting for freedom day! x)

Thursday, October 07, 2004

"Don't shed a tear,
cause it rains in heart.
If you do,
I'll wipe them away.
And if you need me,
I'll carry the sun over the miles,
just to see the sunshine on your face."

today's happy day! ((:
cause i am a happy girl today! x) i simply love today! for it's my BIRTHDAY!
it's demoralising cause i had a 3 hrs mock test. and i got back all my results today. but it it's still so rawking cause i got my wonderful nienie family! LOVE THEM SO MUCH!
i was actually shopping with them for my bday gift for two full days without knowing it. and i was tricked. so tricked. but it was sweet with the special appearance in the funny booklet! and that funny booklet made me cry lah! like wth! so touched k! ((:

thanks nienie family for being such a wonderful bunch of friends. though nienie is like left with 3 pple only with lots of other cliques cause we are all social butterflies! but we are still a HAPPY FAMILY! nienie rawks cause we are funny and funky! ((:

fanny is the fabulous friend u can ever have. she's blur as dory but she's funny and her jokes are lame. super lame! xP her guardian always send me home cause i'm so spoilt since my dad drives me to school. she's just like a lil mummy that looks after your welfare. nothing will ever go wrong in her presence. thanks so much for whatever you have done for me. thanks for all those corny jokes that i really feel like fainting. thanks for being my first friend in c3. thanks for sacrificing your guardian to send me home! love you lots for today. really wanna give u guys a big hug today. but a bit paiseh! ahahaha! xP

my dearest MAMASANwife!
u are the rawkiest woman on earth! thanks for being so scheming and don't have any ideas on my gummy bear arh! u got ur lolli! xP i love u so so so so so much. it's going to be cliche to write out our love story cause we talked abt it everytime. every letters, every laughters, every quarrels, every displeasures, we still never fail to love each other SO much! thanks for everything. esp that tiny surprise, but things are never gonna be the same, i swear i won't be at the same spot again. i need to move on. even though it hurts me so much last time, but i will rather it be like this now. it's nicer. real friendship. no ulterior motive. no more being an ahsoh, at least not for now. gonna miss you like mad when we part to study for o levels and work hard so we can march into hcjc together! and we are going acjc together! x) yayee! =D i won't miss you that bad since first 3 mths will be together. better pray that i get in! x)

today rawks! ((:
thanks to those who messaged, tagged, wished my blessed birthday!
to MARS and BACK!

and. i got myself a new brother! x)
i forced him to! cause he's tooooo cute! =D

`if i had a wish, i would be your tears,

to be born in your eyes and to die on your lips,
but if you were my tears,
i would never cry in fear of losing you.
-i will rather it be like this.

Wednesday, October 06, 2004

i'm freaking jealous! x(
the entire world is going to swarm to the good jcs and what am i left to?
the food stall in taka? to sell cookies?
i'm jealous the beili can still read her book and acted nonchalant
when ms chua announced that she had topped the level for amaths.
jealousy is getting all over me.
which is bad )):

alright. i'm acting like a sore loser.
i was the one who cant resist the temptation of coming online.
i was the one who spent all the time watching tv.
i was the one who went town even before the exams end.
i was the one. i was the one.
it's me. yea.
i'm guilty.

yah. even though it was supposed to be a sad day since i'm flooded with all my horrid results, the half nienie family went to watch The Ghost. it was FREAKING scary! i was peeping through my fingers to watch this movie lah! gin was hiding behind her bag and fanny was sinking herself in the seat lah.
nienie outings for 2 consecutive days! so fun! i wonder how will we be like when we go on our own ways. fanny going to aussie. me and gin in s'pore. jo in her rjc, ph with her MSG. and everyone will have their successful careers and i'll be satisfy with my ambition to be a social worker. =D simplicity is beauty. ((:

what will i turn out to be? will i change my ambition?
am i not growing at the normal rate?
am i just sliding backwards day by day?

alright. tmrw is my bday. and my doom's day.
with all my prelims results.
cookies stall, here i come.

`u expect me to turn all around just for you?
i'm no longer that naive girl.

Monday, October 04, 2004

i'm lost. lost in the sea of thoughts.
i tried reaching out for a helping hand, but i found none.
all that i saw was a back that turn against me.
desperately shouting for help, but to no avil.
a deafening silence pierced right through me,
i wept, shedding tears of vulnerability.
this is was
my world.

had eng mock today. wrote so much. forget about having a fully-recovered wrist lah, cause it's hurting like shit. i reckon i have cultivate a skateboarding phobia, BUT it's real fun! ((: bought a wrist guard for my poor wrist and it's useless cause the guard is too BIG for my wrist.
serves no purpose at all lah!! -blahhhh!-

sis is coming back soon! x) her asean trip is finally going to end! hopes she bring truckloads of pressies for me! =D and that scandalous sis is gng to marry to that bf whom she know for only 3-4 mths. he's not bad lah! like so freaking rich! =P first criteria of an eligible bachelor! =D he's quite nice to my sis too! like flowers every two days! how sweet can this be! x)

i'm upset cause bro got himself a mp3 player when i'm still stuck with my md player. this is SO unfair! xP but well, once bro gets sick of that new device, it will be mine! WHAHAHAH! xP

english mock test essay.
Life is indeed filled with different pleasures. Only fools seek for the materials pleasure where they indulge in the materialistic goods, to follow the trend blindly. However, the wise men look for the beauty of life. They seek for the ultimate truth and pleasures of life, where they receive the true pleasures in life- to be able to love and to be loved, to follow your dreams and achieve what you have worked hard for. So everyone, we must be the wise men that yearn for the true pleasures in life! ((:

Sunday, October 03, 2004

i love sundays too! x) -wink at xinlin-
even though i hafta wake up so early and take such a long trip down to khatib, i still love sundays cause i get to meet that 2 idiotic fellows! it's not as if we don't meet in school lah, but it's only in church that we get to talk crap and gossip! women's characteristics! x) everything was so fine in church today! =D which is GOOD! x)
church lunch, uncle wilson! ((: the girls and the guys! x)
screwed hair? who cares! ((:

i love my guardian force too! x)
and i met a new friend! ms jill! friend of the guardian force! =D
she's real cute and she can shoot the basketball so well!
i feel lousy beside her! -sob!)):-
i was practically chasing after the ball lah!

'white chicks' is SOOOO funny!
a super entertaining movie! laughters-jerking! x)

two black guys as two white ladies!

anddddddd guess what!
my bdae is SO going to come! x)
OCT 7!! =D
i am finally going to be 16!
LIKE 'WOW'! like 'TOTALLY!' [quoted]

`why can't i feel anything now?

Friday, October 01, 2004

i feel insulted when i see that taiwan pple burning our singapore flag. they are SO mean to burn my flag and they were even cheering and jeering when they were burning! this flag symbolises our state, our country, our HOME! my heart was aching when i saw the burnt flag.
-BISH them lah!-

granny's bdae buffet today. was boring! dead boring. my cousins are super cute though. he sang the birthday song alone. HIS SOLO lah! he was like 'ah ma, make a wish! ah ma, blow the candles! ah ma, blow blow!' spoilt kid tho. he fights with his neighbours' kids. cried when my aunt refused to let him cut the cake. wore branded shoes since he was 1 year old. and practically, my whole family gave in to him. and he refused to give me a goodbye kiss. -blahhhhhhhh! xP

and i did smth mean today and i'm sorry for that.
i wanted to tell gin that i dislike my bro's new gf. i typed the sms, and i sent it to my brother! he replied. saying he knew it. but he wants it and he likes it. alright. frivolous ah pek.

aunt: ur bro bring gf to ahma's house arh?
me: yah.
aunt: the same one as before?
me: no. not the same. a new one.
aunt: everytime i see him, sure change one.
aunt 2: even my child realised. 'this jiejie is different from the previous jiejie right, mummy?'

the only engaging conversation i had. i was nodding my head throughtout the conversation, agreeing unanimously to what my aunts have said. frivolous brother.

but i'm sorry, for being so mean. telling straight on his face that i disliked her. i didn't even turn to look at her. was practically ignoring her. i should have respected my bro's decision. since he was the one who chose her. sorry bro.

ss mock was funny. with ow swee lan. x)
we were practically talking in the exam hall when we were having mock. and she was SO DEAF to not hear us. poor hc was caught to do her work beside ow. too bad! xP ow was the only one who don't know how to use powerpoint also. different era lah. pinning her bra strap to her blouse so that it won't drop out. -faints- funky teachers we've got in crescent.

failed my PHYSuckICS mcq )):
mr lim can go and be a vocalist instead of a teacher lah.
shoo him!

down with LIM!

`waiting for that day for someone to tell me what to do.