i went down to jurong gardens school today. was just supposed to meet mr keith lee abt volunteering but in the end, he made me stay back the entire day.
and gushh!
it was fun ((: really fun! ((:

anw, jurong gardens school is actually a school of MINDS (movement for intellectually disabled of S'pore) which is one of the oldest and largest non-governmental organisations catering to the needs of the Intellectually Disabled in Singapore since 1962

so i was led to a preschool class, preschool 1, with 6 little kids and 2 teachers. and joy came! (eunice's friend whom i only saw in her pictures before) her school's interact club has been helping jurong gardens school since last year! like WHAO!! i shld've join interact club also.

they had swimming today! ((: or just simply waddling in the pool but they were having so much fun!! though winston was crying through the entire trip back and forth. but it is alright cos' this is one of his way to communicate to us. (most of them have speech problem) i was supposed to help farhana wear her diapers and thank God, it was a pull-up diapers or else i will be left clueless on how to wear a diapers. and i made the kids fall a thousand times. i am so useless )):

but they are all so adorable :D

on the way home, i saw the mainstream kids and i realised how fortunate i really am. i am interested in this field not because i pity them or smth. according to mr lee, we are there to help them help themselves.

actually i wish i will stay in the preschool classes, i'm afraid i can't handle the older kids. but i saw this really sweet boy (most prob arnd our age) who was helping the younger kids to zip their jacket and helping them to carry their bags. i was so touched. serious. so tremendously proud of this guy ((:

next trip down will be next next fri since next fri is good friday! yay! and my friday timetable will be on tuesday which make my extremely long day in tues become an extremely short day on fri.
HAPPINESS! ((:

A01 has been rather moodswingy and angsty lately. must be the aftermath of getting back our ct results and the coming nationals, pre-u sem and performances. i guess things will get worse when ct 2 is approaching and our prelims too. it hasn't really sink in to me very deeply that i haven got a lot of time left. at the rate i am progressing, i can forsee a very bad end.

today has been a good day since it ended well.
thank God for my normality. thank God for patience, opportunities.
though i never feel so lost in my life, ever.

thank you God for the world so sweet

sometimes i rather be self-deluded and ignorant and do everything in my own ways when i need not care about other people's remarks, feelings or whatever attitudes they have.

i miss talking abt serious stuff. mundane stuff like hearting someone is so trivial.
i miss having someone to have a heart to heart talk. or just simply having lotsa time to talk. at the rate i am talking, i am turning autistic, though i am often heard talking abt irrelevant stuff in school and i feel that it's just so trivial (yeah, i got limited vocab)
i need some depth in my life.
i need to share. i want to share.

anw, in jurong gardens school, the autistic kids' classrooms have individual compartments so as to let them have their world on their own while still having interaction time with others. i've yet to see these classrooms though.

i am rewatching the sad swordfighting drama serial.
still so sad.
)):



amy's dog died today.