i wondered how's hell is like? the bible says it's eternal burning, eternal damnation. is it really that scary? that painful? and i am afraid. really do. i just feel so sinful so evil. there was once when i quarrelled with my mum and she just spurted out, "so you call yourself a christian?" it struck me. right at me. right into me. how often do i really practice chrisitian living in my life. i am just so sinful, so vulnerable, so weak.

when i was watching "luther" yesterday for my enrichment, i realised how much i paled in comparison as a christian.even though he's a Catholic and i'm a protestant, but it's still the same.
God is everywhere. His is where our Bible lies. Salvation is not by buying indulgence, not just doing good works to earn your way up to Heaven.
Luther's like one for the most honoured, truth-inspired christian man. He loyally holds on to the truth, regardless of the numerous persecutions by the corrupted priests and bishops.

How many of us are actually willing to die for Christ, to die to speak the truth?
How many of us are actually willing to forsake all these worldly riches and leave the Earth with Christ for eternal life?

Imagine one day, God speaks to you and say
"O Child, i am here to take you away. You have to leave your family, your boyfriend, your friends and give up your millionaire job, your porsche car, your big humongous house. Leave everything and come with Me. Don't be afraid cause you have nothing to worry anymore in Heaven, you don't need all these things."

WILL YOU HAPPILY LEAVE WITH GOD?
WILL YOU FORSAKE EVERYTHING AND LEAVE WITH GOD?
WILL YOU?
i will. i'm sure i will.

but what shall cordelia speak? Love and be silent.

However, i think it's the hardest to follow God and leave this world, when you have a husband and a family. You have to leave almost everything, you can't watch and help your kids grow (though you can see it from Heaven), you can't grow old with your husband. To me, this is the hardest.

alright, i can't blog anymore. my mind is blank already.
ciaos.

B for Boon is so random!

`love is such an amazing thing that i don't really want to try.