i make an effort to blog down what i've done each day cos' i feel every day is worth remembering.

"maybe months down the road when u read these mundane entries, u'd feel... er.. nostalgic?" -melvyn-

i believed there's much more then just feeling nostalgic or having remembered what you've done, it's more of evaluating how much you've changed over the years and how much you've failed to learn from all the past experiences and definitely how much you've succeeded to not make the same mistakes again.

over these few hundred entries i've blogged, i realised i've actually metamorphosise
good or bad? i've yet to conclude.
and i refused to do so.
it's actually how you really look at things right?
bad things can actually be a blessing in disguise if you are really THAT optimistic
and bads things can really be REALLY REALLY BAD if you are at the other extreme.

today's main highlight: crescent funfair!!
and boy, i met a whole lots of people ((:
mini trio gathering :D
met my fave layne senior
zeanpokkk
and the sa band pple can't pon bandddd! )):

however, i feel this detachment from crescent.
i'm no longer is yellow and blue, but in gray and MORE gray.
i'm no longer in a class of 40 with a mini garden outside our classroom, a mini changing room
i'm no longer sent to school by my dad ( I MISS THIS MAN!)
i no longer enjoying being myself.

i see more of myself outside school.
at work, while volunteering.

anw, i was offered a job (a permanent full time job) to work as one of the front line officers in my hotel cos' they actually find me highly amiable.
i feel honoured. extremely in fact.
and i will never deny the fact that i enjoy working in the service sector
i used to think that i am highly unsociable (ever since i went to nj), but now i realised that i'm actually sociable, just that all these instincts are being supressed in my environment now.

wha. i can't stop bitching abt the state i've been for the past 1yr or so.
i can't. i just can't while looking how much i've beared.
argh.

man shld be just an island.


and if you would ever say,
"come back to me, girl. i'm sorry."
i'll go through all obstacles just to be with you again.