it sucks when u know u are the worst and pulling others down
where's that fulfillment man?


i miss siew today.
haha.
in fact, i miss her random-ness.

hmm...

let's talk abt BANANAS today! :D
it contains 3 repetitive vowel, our royal A

i think bananas are cool yet dumb.
u can praise someone saying "coolio bananas"
or u can insult somene saying "stinky bananas"

both sound equally applicable :D

bananas are used to describe people who are actually chinese but are often westernised and have a low proficiency in their chinese.
these people can also be called "eat potatoes" in hokkien.
[this is what i learnt at copthorne, cos' they said i suck when i speak in chi]

banana reminds me of papaya.
it's cool when namers of fruits give dumb names like these.
it's simply repeating the same vowel and the sound.
banana rhymes with papaya.
and since young, i always mixed the names up.
like calling babana and payaya.

lastly, bananas are good for ur digestive system.
and during the days in crescent, the nienie family always have this toilet time. it's actually funny, when u see fanny rushing to the loo at 7:15am when she just reached school.

and ginny is apt with the skill of stripping the banana and
making it into a mini pencil box.
powermama.


okie. enough of crap.

i did something real dumb during the band fest.
)):

me and sy always used the handicapped toilet at level two. and since that's the only toilet without the automatic light switch, the lights switch was located outside.

so when sy was inside the toilet,
i just simply PLAYED WITH THE LIGHTS!
so i switched it on and off at like turbo speed and behaving really silly thinking i were the only one around.

suddenly, i saw these few figures looming behind me and one of them bent low and turned to me with that oh-what-you-doing look. so i looked at him with the oh-you-caught-me-doing-smth-silly look. and i was so in distraught, i wanna hide my face under the non-slip mat.

i was totally clueless,
so i just continued switching on and off the lights pretending i didn't see them and hopefully they didnt catch me doing something silly.

oh man.
i bet they were laughing their asses off on their way back.

hmm
and the first time i did the completely same thing,
i was caught by this trumpeter who thought that the handicapped toilet was the gents.

him: what were u doing outside the gents just now?
me: that's NOT the gents!!! i am NOT a pervert.

oh man.
RAHRAH!

ltt is such a lady killer with his pok face!
so outspoken and hilarious.

this sh*t is b-a-n-a-n-a-s :D

and i come to realise that i really regretted all the choices i've made this freaking year.
why can't i choose smth that will make me happier?
instead of choosing smth that makes me so miserable.

and freak. holidays are ending and my happy days are going to be over soon
my next happy days will be the next holiday which is after alevels.
cheers.

for now, i am gng to look forward for hk trip and CHRISTMAS!
this the season to be jolly, falalalalala.

i've got a long gifts list! :D
presents from hongkong, friends ((:

and things may not be what it seems.
sometimes, it's just so wrong to jump into things so easily.
be sensible, worldings.
yes, me.


to you: we love you so much, always. always here for you. though most of the time, we would rather suffer all things alone, thinking we are really strong enough. but inside that bravefront, it's just another person with a mashmellow heart, that ain't strong enough to handle the harshness of the storm. we've been thru it so many times. be strong, gal :D

and to rojak, grace and joanne: i love u guys so much. to mars and back, and to mars and back again! :D