stand up. speak up.

thank God that today's the last band practice of this holiday.
or else my life is gonna shorten by a decade.

i wonder what's the point of whining and complaining among your own group of friends. if there's something that you are really displeased, stand up and speak up. even though you might be dismissed almost immediately, but you know you tried to get your point across.
at least i tried.

transparency.
after the entire TT Durai saga, everyone wants their leaders to be transparent in whatever they do. but i am obviously disappointed with the band leaders.

how on earth can one man's view be the view of all?
how can the decision of the leaders be the decision of all?
just because the leaders dislike something and so they reject and the rest have to follow suit?

i barely know what was going on for the entire heated conversation between mr ho and the band until i heard that my "six inn of happiness" (the piece that i loved most!) is at risk!
so i just stood up and gave some suggestions (it was a feeble attempt) but i was dismissed almost instantaneously.
before i raised my hands to voice my opinion, my section was hissing among ourselves.
and i was really agitated by the band, esp. the exco; the exclusive.
and nat said, " if you say all these, you'll get smacked by everyone lah!"
this is the situation in the band.
i wasn't really in the right state of mind when there's band.
after i made my stand, i just yelped out smth like "come hit me lah! all these rolling eyes."
(it wasn't very loud, so those who heard me was at the minimum.)

and that person in that adidas shirt really irks me.
what a fabulous plan to tackle latecoming!
after july 8, i won't have to catch and run for buses so as to avoid from having a big humongus L (for LATE!) for morning assembly and more quality time with my classmates at the parade square. oh, but i will miss the view from the back of the parade square! )):

but anyway, everything just cools down within me. afterall, i don't even think i am pretty much recognised in this band.

on a happier note, i think i shld start selling the guitar bags (my head is swelling, yet again!)
and qiling came up with a fabulous suggestion : to sell my bags to MILUBING! ((:

actually, i came up with this idea lah! i was thinking of what to say to them if i have worked on that day, and i came up with this stupid idea.
"hey. u are milubing's nic right? you play the guitar right? (like duh!) you wanna have customised guitar bags? oh! and you are weiqi right? (SILENT SCREAMS!) i saw some of the caps you made, maybe we shld parter and open a business!"

haha! i would say all these if i were at the banquet without being all desperate and uncool.
"we need to keep our image!" -ginny used to say this to dora last yr.

i realised i like huxley's writing method with all the parenthesis and all the authorial comments.

melvin is a really nice loyal friend and reader of my blog. he actually offered me shoulders at discounted rate.
thanks ((: it's all these little gestures that make life much more meaningful.
and thank God. he said i sounded much more better as compared to 1yr back.
i am just accepting the fact that i'm fellow grey alphas


when everyone's changing,
i hope i don't change.
my stand, my views, my passion, my ways, my Faith and myself.


i admit that i am selective when socialising.