it takes me a long time to really open myself out to people now.
i just don't feel like talking much.
and if i do,
i just don't feel like talking THAT much now.

perhaps spending too much time alone slowly decreases your ability to communicate with others.
words just don't seem to be coherant anymore
and actions just seem out of place sometimes.

anw, ystd was quite a good day.
we had a section lunch after a long long time.
and it was just us. the girls only.
so we chatted and talked.
it was nice ((:

i think my sis is a busybody.
she nips her butt in everything.

alright. so i went to work. as usual. i didnt talk a lot.perhaps just 5 sentences to each one of them? OH! except shaun (arnd 7sentences?) who i've not seen since godknowswhen.

i've no idea since when i seriously hate talking.
but perhaps, the people at work have the wrong frequency as me.
to me, they are still nice. just wrong frequency.
perhaps i dont really work a lot, and i don't really go out and talk to them or smth.that's why, there this strange barrier between me and them.
(i think so lah! cos' during the hols, i really enjoyed their companionship!)

anw, ystd night's function was dinner and dance.
the theme was "BACK TO SCHOOL"
and i saw a crescentian on my table.
i so much wanted to tell her, "HEY I AM A CRESCENTIAN TOO!"
but i didn't cos' i was just a waitress.
(and i am actually looking down at my own job)
she was wearing a councillor badge, so i assumed she was once a councillor and i wondered what was going through her mind when she wore back this uniform that she wore at least 2 decades ago (she's arnd 40-ish).
yeah, but it was really heartwarming to see this crescentian all grown up and married. and i really see myself like her next time, still wearing crescent uniform with pride.
OH YEAH! SHE TOTALLY TUCKED IN HER UNIFORM LAH!!

it was really cool.
except those imposters in don't know what shit uniforms
that company has lotsa RIs, ACS, boysbrigades uniform and this dad on my table was so proudly announcing that he wore an authetic school uniform, his son's uniform!!

and yeah, i have attended like 5-6 dinner and dance
and out of the 5-6, around 4 companies used the theme "back to school"
all the companies thought this theme was unique,
but actually it's not.
i guess, these adults just need a break from reality.
but the dinner and dance's theme last night was the most successful
at least 70% of the workers came in school uni ((:

alright.
written words are most effective to express what i really feel now.
ciaos.