i need a new world.
grayworld

no more candyworld.
no more fantasyworld.
i need reality checks.

i rem blogging abt the bottomless pit.
i rem how i used to be so expressive.
this time,
i am different.

i really can't put what i am feelin inside me into words.
i dont even really understand how i really feel.

sometimes i don't believe i can move on so quickly.
i am pushing myself. to a future which i can't grapse.
sometimes i can't really be bothered
i am behaving ignorantly. it's because i dont wanna be affected by stuff

i don't rem myself behaving like this before.
i don't rem myself in this kind of situation and environment before.

this time,
everything is real. everything is settled.
confirmed.
life is nv the same as before.

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i am blogging so much now. as compared to the past few mths in nj. cause now, i am so can't be bothered that i become quite free.
HAHA.
what a thing to be proud of.
BLAHHHHH!

anw!
I JUST BLOGGEDDDDD!