i am so weak.
i got all so emotional talking to a little girl who might not even understand the plight i am in.

i wanna turn back time.
to the time when i am still young.
when things were simpler then.

i wanna turn back time.
to learn to be a spiritual help to everyone, especially you.
perhaps things will be easier now.

sometimes i feel the peace within.
really.
but sometimes i really can't control the emotional struggles i have within.

i really wanna be a good testimony of Christ.
i wanna be holy.
but i am just a sinner.
sinful sinner.

perhaps somethings shouldn't have happen.

i am still trying and will always be happy.
big fat smile ((: