i have no idea what to do.
i have no idea what i'm searching of.
i have no idea what my life would be.

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i dont wanna go.
i don't want.

if i could,
i would have done it long time ago.

i always think girls like me are strong.
but now i think otherwise.
i am just as weak. maybe much more worse.
i am not strong enough to go thru all these alone.

dear Lord.
pls help me in my despair.
dear Lord.
save me from this harshness of reality.
Amen.