a short extract frm the book "One Child" by Torey Hayden

"What i can't figure out is why good things always end."
"Everything ends.
What doesn't end is the way we feel about each other.
Even when you are all grown up and somewhere else, you can remember what a good time we had together.
Even when you are in the middle of bad things and they never seem to be changing,
you can remember me. And I'll remember you."

it appears to me that everything good will always end.
and it always end when i enjoyed it the most.
but what i'v learnt thru'out these years,
is that being sentimental doesn't pay.
it doesn't pay at all.


what's life when you lose all your hopes?
someone told me that he's upset because he has lost all his hopes in accomplishing smth in his cca. so i told him, i am sorry. i have lost the feeling of being hopeful in all things. i can't really help you. but yeah, even if others give up hopes on you, you can't give up on yourself.

and that was the best advice i can give him
cos' i realised i've been living without a hope; a desire to accomplish smth.
i'm simply living for the sake of looking forward to a better life in uni;
at least out of nj.

at least, i am hopeful to make my uni life more fulfilling.
does this count?

and when i'm feeling upset,
i like to read my older blog entries
and this is what i saw
band today. taking pictures as usual. playing songs frm sec 1 to 3. fun fun! love band.
it's relativism acting upon my again.
i can imagine myself typing that when i was in sec 4.
typing it filled with enthusiasm, passion and hopes.


wonderful God,
wonderful God,
you are worthy for the glory.
i love hillsongs,
they never fail to make me cry.



imagine a long dark alley with an exit sign at the end.
the exit leads to freedom,happiness,
all things that you ever wanted,
so you prayed,
"God, i'll walk by faith and not by sight, lead me."
however, after saying the prayer.
you refused to take a single step,
fearing that you may bump into the walls and fall.
you won't even know where God will lead you if you don't even trust Him to guide you



`it just happens to me that i thought of you today.