i didn't have a hunch. i didn't have any premonition.
it just happened. like an unexpected asteroids falling from the outer space.
alright. wrong analogy.


too much coincidence. too much unexpectancy.
too much of unpredicatable.
i never thought i will be so fated with my wife. and sadly,
fated in THAT way.
that way that caused much joy, laughters, tears, hurt
and an unerasable past.
and one will least to believe what we have been through.
like gin said,
"how can we be put into the EXACT same situations
on two seperate occasions,
on two consecutive days"
and yet resulted in the same ending.
this is our fate. we are fated and i love you, wife (:


it's ain't that same feeling. i doubt i will ever feel the same anymore.
no matter how hard i try to make myself feel it again
i can't do it.
and it makes me wanna run away.
the standards are there.
`the unattainable.
i know it's ain't fair. but this deceitful heart is SELFISH, EVIL.
i am sorry for that.


reality.
i wanna watch the notebook. i don't care!
i must watchhhhhhh! -whines! ):


-desperately needing a reality check.