death.
inevitable.
death.
the pain too much to handle.
death.
the turning point in life.
death. death...
perhaps is the only gateway to salvation. to walk with God.
and perhaps...
this is the only encouraging reason for me to delight in death.

i'm not being sadist. i'm just scare that i'll just leave this world soon. so very soon. or someone near me just die. i really can't bear to leave this world. there's so much for me to do. so much for me to accomplish. and i wouldn't want my parents/ siblings to leave to. i think i will be so helpless.

aiyeah. i'm talking crap.
spare me.

sch's tmrw.
nj, here i come.



i will miss the freedom.
and i will miss you.